Look back at past and wanting to go back
cause Iam stressed with trying to make it work with someone new
So I turn to an old love for familiar comfort.
Cause looking forward is scary sometimes.
Iam trying to be more open.
Willing to take others in. But at the same time i have pride which keeps me in the middle.
And I'm scared that I'll be alone all my life. That I'll let time just slip threw my fingers.
I taught my self to protect my feelings by expecting the bad . Now i dont know how to shut it off this thought process.
I feel lost looking into the hazy path that lies ahead. Because I'm scared to express how i really feel. I'm scared to move forward emotionally.
So i look back and keep repeating my same heart aches. Thinking I can fix something old.
I am scared ppl won't understand me. That I will love too hard.
So sometimes I just hold my head down instead. Just to see i am stuck on a path that I have walked back and forth many times before
