New year

At the begging of the year i make new year promises to myself.

I am going to promise my self to give things a try give it my all . but with that take my time. I cant not just shut out things if i see them not going my way. I just need to stay focused.

Well this year has already started off crazy. I have added new/old guys too my life. I dont know what i am running from might not be as bad as i think. maybe if i take the time to look at my situation maybe i can fix it. Or maybe the past is just the past and i should keep l, looking forward.

But the more i look fwd the more that i see my past in the new people i meet. The more i see what i am running from. the more it catches up too me. or i take the time to stop and let the pass catch me then i think i can have more. so i run and i run fast to the next and they are nothing of what i even thought they would be. So when i am tired of running my past that has been trying to catch me has caught me.
and the reason why he caught me is because he is running from the same thing.

but i end up with the short stick